Cliffs of unforgiven sorrows

Well today i dont feel too good... at least my surgery will be postponed for a later date cause i was too chicken to have it today,, i felt the chills running down my back, and just when the sweat drop went in the floor i cancelled the surgery... i was talking to a frind yesterday but i got her mad or upset... i feel really bad for making her upset.. im so sorry i really am,... my dad came home yesterday from a month missing ... i wasnt too happy to see him because he was gonna interrupt my conversation with Mali Mali.. it hasnt been the brightests of years and it beats heavily upon my soul that i make other people upset and they push me away into darkness. but i thank god for sending me someone that cares alot for me, I love her so much, with her, i will not fall, and i will make sure she stays up with me on our feet... As for the gun,, i past by the sewer today it was open, so i took the gun out of my backpack and i took it apart and grabbed the trigger part so no one would ever touch it... i threw it away.... lunctime at school was lame as always, i was alone i dont know i feel dead to everyone nobody pays attention anymore but i have a guitar :) I was falling sad but i promised someone i wouldnt fall anymore... my dog Oso at age 16, has finally stopped living in this world, hes gone to a place i dont know, i wish dogs had a heaven too so i could see him again,, i had him in my arms yesterday, i carried him with a smile thanking him for so much company he had giving me " bye bye my brother" and with a tear covering his fluffy black ear, i dug a hole so he could rest there forever..... As an ending,, i wanna add that im so happy with "her" right now, I love her so much i thank her for being here and listening to my cries... Saaturday is prom night... yay! (sarcastic) theyre having punch as drinks!! :)