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It was a regular day May 11 Kurts bday!! not normal day!!. i woke up to Kurt's voice yelling very loud " get yo fat ass up foo!!! we are going to have a hella good day!! I got up and gave him his hug!! i said "what about school?" "there is no school for u today" he said.. i gave him a guitar secret tabs book, which included all songs from metallica!!.. so throught the day here we are walking for 7 hours straight, we went to guitar center!! he bought some type of nw strings for his guitar. we walked to the mall, we ate, we ran, we talked, we yelled, we annoyed people, we walked, and ran some more, and we drank koolaid!! we ate a hamburger the size of kurts head!!! :) It was 6ish in the afternoon, Kurt and i were walking down some kind of trail in woods, we walked and i asked where were we going but he smiled and kept walking..... finally we found the lake,, i never seen a lake so black like this.... Kurt sat down i remember there he was sitting down in a rock with his pants ipped from his knees, i sat down next to him he said in a calm voice. " It really sucks doesnt it little Hetfield? (he called me that because i ilike james hetfield) i asked " what does" and he says " life, you think ure happy until it finally hits you like spit falling into ur skin and hearts burning it out until u cry no more pain,, little bro i wish i could tell u were adopted but ur parents right now are ur real parents no matter what... ,Michelle past away because of some f*ucker took her it was a great pain for you i did notice, please be strong out of 5 brothers youre the strongest in will. I dont think youll get married because you care too much for someone that theyll think ur obsessed with them and then ull be hurt by them.. if you do get married, knock on my tomb 5 times" he took out a gun in that instant, he said " stay here and think of the day we had..." I was on my knees crying letting out tears that burned the ground with so much fury, no words came out of my mind as i saw his shadow fade away, away away,..... away... the crackling in the ground of the branch stopped.. i covered my ears as soon as i yelled "KUUUUUURT" i heard the shot no sound will ever i forget, the sound of another fallen angel in my life. i was crying, but i walked to him, he had his sunglasses on on to look cool i guess,,, i washed his wounds and i carried him back home... now,, Michelle and Kurt lie in the same grave,,, Nail number 99 had been put into my heart, one more im just gonna die, i could feel the gun in my pocket.. i sat down with the gun in my hand.. i put in in my head, i loaded and i thought how much i hated my life,,, "click" nothing happened for the gun wasnt loaded anymore... i didnt think i could make it..........