back to normal day

so back to regular days.. today was dumb.. mm i dont recall being at all happy. if i laughed it had to be when i sang master of puppets in a death grunt voice haha. anyways.. how can i be happy? :( theres nothing to smile about.. yes i have a life.. yes i am alive.. so what? Master of puppets. How am i pulling your string? now ur pulling mine.. anyways beware.. me in a bad mood= bad news for my parents... nobody remembers me in this place. shit.

Seize the day, I see my vision burns

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These's streets we traveled on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'll do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
(a melody, a memory, or just one PICTURE)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
(a melody, a memory, or just one PICTURE)

Seize the day or die regretting the time You lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here
Don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real



So what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
So I never want to leave you and the memories OF us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time You lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here
Don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

(Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day)
(Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day)
(I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home)

(Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day)
(Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day)

sweet aroma of hatred..

Bad day at school again what did I expect... everyone is the same. I feel so dumb... full of hate.. i dont know what to take it out on.. i could ounch holes through the wall... anyways.. what i wrote is better than nothing to explain.
Jealousy's an ugly word, but you don't seem to care
Converse behind my back, but now I'm here
Need no one to comply with me though everyone that I defeat
Dont need you, fuck camaraderie, this rage will never go away

Hatred fuels my blood
I'll burn you down You can't help me
One king to watch the horsemen fail
I'll fight 'til the end I won't help you
I can't trust anyone See it in my eyes
Now I can understand
It's sorrow that feeds your lies
Whoa, yeah!

You're on my back when the water gets too deep for you to breathe
A crutch for you that won't always be there
Hide in the dark another day, the fear in you is here to stay
So keep the fuck away from me and learn to trust the words I say

Hatred fuels my blood
I'll burn you down You can't help me
One king to watch the horsemen fail
I'll fight 'til the end I won't help you
I can't trust anyone Witness and see it in my eyes

Now I can understand
Put faith in you for the last time
It's sorrow that feeds your lies
Ha! Yeah, yeah!

Run from me before I tear you down Be afraid
You chose the wrong side It feels so right
I won't help you, let you rot away Despise what you say
Run towards the light exposing your soul We won't be there by your side
Salvation's dying Somebody's crying
We're all gone in the end
Sweet child we'll miss you
Whoa, so far away, far away

I can't trust anyone Witness and see it in my eyes
Now I can understand Put faith in you for the last time
It's sorrow that feeds your lies

Falling away
Can't buy back time
Burn it down anyway

Master of Puppets...

Last time I checked that song is so comforting, let me hear that solo one more time, life dripping, my heart in my hand dripping with blood, you tore it out from my chest and smashed my dreams. Now I yell Master! Master! wheres those dreams that Ive been after, you promised only lies!!! all i hear is laughter, laughing at my cries. Fetch me Fuck!! ive gone mad i know haha. ahh stupid day at school. all i did was school, study, write, stud write except at guitar class or english. we got in trouble in english class for apparantly being "Too hot" hahaha. we had a subsitute and she was like "Those Mexican guys and their hot accent. haha yeah after she heard us say bad things we got in trouble haha. anyways. dumb days. well at least right now im doing hwk and writing.

Harvester of sorrow

Its about a father, who takes all his family's life... he beats them, shoots them. kIll them.. let the writting speak for itself.....My Life Suffocates
Planting Seeds of Hate
I've Loved, Turned to Hate
Trapped Far Beyond My Fate

I Give
You Take
This Life That I Forsake
Been Cheated of My Youth
You Turned this Lie to Truth

Anger
Misery
You'll Suffer unto Me

Harvester of Sorrow
Language of the Mad
Harvester of Sorrow

Pure Black Looking Clear
My Work Is Done Soon Here
Try Getting Back to Me
Get Back Which Used to Be

Drink up
Shoot in
Let the Beatings Begin
Distributor of Pain
Your Loss Becomes My Gain

Anger
Misery
You'll Suffer unto Me

Harvester of Sorrow
Language of the Mad
Harvester of Sorrow

All Have Said Their Prayers
Invade Their Nightmares
To see into My Eyes
You'll Find Where Murder Lies

Infanticide





The reason why i wrote this? (hahah)

Old Memories

I guess its just me in my thoughts here :/ i feel lonely.. sis.. i wish u were here.. i miss the good times.. even if we werent perfect at first.. we would be perfect later... skool started.. i cannot concentrate without her coming into my mind.. i havent moved on.. she moved on so fast on me.. i cant believe it.. :/ ... i wanted to go to college together.. the perfect plan.. Cat security.. i wanna watch that movie... and Final Fantasy.. i really do..

first day of second semester

jeez.. back to skool.. yay.. let me hear all the yay's... "Yay.." i got French 5-6, English 12, Physics, Finite Math, econonmics and finally Guitar.. i like English, math, economics and guitar of course... im so freaking tired i cannot stand it. Im pissed at some people right now.. they make lunch pretty upsetting to me right now. i hate the feeling. and outside of skool still are some people.. even if its family.. hmm well i ran for about 2 hours today. i didnt feel tired thanks to my my new knees. haha.. im hearing music right now.. how i miss the old times.. James Hetfield, Lars Ulrich, Kirk Hammet, and Jason Newsted, my Metallica boys haha... I like the concert Binge and Purge back in 1986, i have the DVD haha. I just to learn how to play one more album and i can finally call myself a Metallic freak :p.. skool was fun, home i hate it, life is gay..

nothing is ever right..

ever since you left.. nothing comes out right for me ....

sigh...........

Well just another day i guess.. nothing special.. my knees are hurting like.. yeah.. HELL!!... well i got my surgery done :) but sometimes it hurts. Im surprised the varsity coach came up to me and invited me to play soccer for the school. excitting.. i cant spell today. i guess i really impressed him after i kicked the ball so hard and scored on my friend. we laughed so hard, he said "Dude your gonna be famous!!" im like "Umm yeah sure, i dont give for fame" i just wanna play what i like to play. soccer aint that much of a dream anymore. over the past months i have somehow achieved better guitar skill, i can play songs now without any mistake and while touching peoples hearts. exciting. I saw James Hetfield last October as a birthday gift from me,, to me.. haha.. lame.. but it was another good day.. i got inspired to get on my feet i guess. I wish i could tell james i wanna replaace his metallica with my own band haha. but i bet he'd kick me out!! i still keep up the spirit, i wear black :) i try playing like petrucci too. i have The Count of Tuscany nailed down in my hand :) took me long to learn it all though lol. i feel happy sometimes when i play guitar, mostly comes out a mellow guitar playing. i try closing my eyes when i play. ugh i looked in the mirror today!! i was like oh my god.. shave!!! other than that im in perfect shape for a soccer day :) and i wanna say something grinning, hope you read, I dont have a girlfriend, dont plan to, unless its that one person whom i have not moved on from and never will, cuz i swore to that person id love her. i dont care if our love cannot be visible to people, its not wrong. she told me not to reply so ill just

Winter...

I cant describe how much i love the winter. The air, the rain, the intensely cold nights. Right now im in my second house, in Tijuana Mexico. A little while ago i was outside receiving the rain, it was cold but i didnt care. The raindrops fell on my cheeks. becoming a type of makeup against my real human tears. Anyways, i saw the sky and asked god for a wish, a christmas and New Years gift. then a moment later i ate a fortune cookie and it said my wish was about to come true¡¡ haha. yay.. i hope it does.

New year everyone

Happy new year. well what can i say. new year. new start. that simple. i will try to make this year a better one for me. here i come to the world of the university. oh god. oh wel.. ill have to try.