Old Memories

I guess its just me in my thoughts here :/ i feel lonely.. sis.. i wish u were here.. i miss the good times.. even if we werent perfect at first.. we would be perfect later... skool started.. i cannot concentrate without her coming into my mind.. i havent moved on.. she moved on so fast on me.. i cant believe it.. :/ ... i wanted to go to college together.. the perfect plan.. Cat security.. i wanna watch that movie... and Final Fantasy.. i really do..

first day of second semester

jeez.. back to skool.. yay.. let me hear all the yay's... "Yay.." i got French 5-6, English 12, Physics, Finite Math, econonmics and finally Guitar.. i like English, math, economics and guitar of course... im so freaking tired i cannot stand it. Im pissed at some people right now.. they make lunch pretty upsetting to me right now. i hate the feeling. and outside of skool still are some people.. even if its family.. hmm well i ran for about 2 hours today. i didnt feel tired thanks to my my new knees. haha.. im hearing music right now.. how i miss the old times.. James Hetfield, Lars Ulrich, Kirk Hammet, and Jason Newsted, my Metallica boys haha... I like the concert Binge and Purge back in 1986, i have the DVD haha. I just to learn how to play one more album and i can finally call myself a Metallic freak :p.. skool was fun, home i hate it, life is gay..

nothing is ever right..

ever since you left.. nothing comes out right for me ....

sigh...........

Well just another day i guess.. nothing special.. my knees are hurting like.. yeah.. HELL!!... well i got my surgery done :) but sometimes it hurts. Im surprised the varsity coach came up to me and invited me to play soccer for the school. excitting.. i cant spell today. i guess i really impressed him after i kicked the ball so hard and scored on my friend. we laughed so hard, he said "Dude your gonna be famous!!" im like "Umm yeah sure, i dont give for fame" i just wanna play what i like to play. soccer aint that much of a dream anymore. over the past months i have somehow achieved better guitar skill, i can play songs now without any mistake and while touching peoples hearts. exciting. I saw James Hetfield last October as a birthday gift from me,, to me.. haha.. lame.. but it was another good day.. i got inspired to get on my feet i guess. I wish i could tell james i wanna replaace his metallica with my own band haha. but i bet he'd kick me out!! i still keep up the spirit, i wear black :) i try playing like petrucci too. i have The Count of Tuscany nailed down in my hand :) took me long to learn it all though lol. i feel happy sometimes when i play guitar, mostly comes out a mellow guitar playing. i try closing my eyes when i play. ugh i looked in the mirror today!! i was like oh my god.. shave!!! other than that im in perfect shape for a soccer day :) and i wanna say something grinning, hope you read, I dont have a girlfriend, dont plan to, unless its that one person whom i have not moved on from and never will, cuz i swore to that person id love her. i dont care if our love cannot be visible to people, its not wrong. she told me not to reply so ill just

Winter...

I cant describe how much i love the winter. The air, the rain, the intensely cold nights. Right now im in my second house, in Tijuana Mexico. A little while ago i was outside receiving the rain, it was cold but i didnt care. The raindrops fell on my cheeks. becoming a type of makeup against my real human tears. Anyways, i saw the sky and asked god for a wish, a christmas and New Years gift. then a moment later i ate a fortune cookie and it said my wish was about to come true¡¡ haha. yay.. i hope it does.

New year everyone

Happy new year. well what can i say. new year. new start. that simple. i will try to make this year a better one for me. here i come to the world of the university. oh god. oh wel.. ill have to try.