Abrahan Hetfield has to rise again from the ashes

There i lie in a corner of my room.. sitting alone.. in profound darkness... no motivation.. no hapinness no sun shinning through my windows... no flashing in my eyelids.. i cry into tears of terror.. constantly spacing out into a diffrent world.. my world of dreams.. where i am in a stone house and my wife and my kid.. then i come to reality again.. she stabbed my heart.. my heart is ripped apart and burned so that it wont regenrate with anything.. the only thing that can cure it now.. is her.. but that wont happen most likely.. today is saturday.. i tried to put on some music... and so i did.. i tried singing.. i just couldnt sing.. i tried again.. and again.. then it came in! Fuck you!! you wanna sing!!! sing!!!! i started headbanging Harvester of sorrow" HEY! HEY! HEY! HEY! HEY! i was singing again... i felt the adrenaline again.. theres no turning back.. im going to fight for whats right.. hmm i sound crazy as i write this? haha lame.. who cares.. im the only that reads,, and i still laugh when i do.. i cant sleep anymore to say the truth.. sigh* who am i fooling? only myself.. im not happy anymore..